l Been sitting on this short bit for two weeks... l

| January 22, 2013 || 2:34 p.m. |

Had a wonderful New Year and I am so glad that I spent the evening with my Husband. I realized I was putting my friends in a very awkward position as well as just being plain selfish. When I stopped drinking and decided to join AA, I also pledged to live a life of honesty and integrity. Well I can’t have my sobriety and my cake & eat it too. I still think about her night and day but I can no longer text her in the presence of my husband and when I do text anyone late at night or in the evening I questioned about who and what I am texting.

I brought it all on myself and I couldn’t help but be honest with him about Angie. I couldn’t let myself tell him everything that has happened and it is in his and my own best interest to keep it that way, so he doesn’t know that anything has happened, but that both Angie and I want something to happen. At first he gave us permission to spend the night together to “get it out of my system” but recanted the next day after I had already booked the room and told her we were “good to go”.

Ugh, I know I need to finish this... it's been two weeks but the wedding is Saturday and I have too much going on.

Making choices. Hopefully the right ones.

As much as I WANT Angie. I love my husband. Decision made but it's also difficult to keep in action. Sex drives ya hard. I wanna drive her hard... STOP it!!

I'll try again to finish this post later.

| Deeper | throughts | Remembered |

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