l no monkey on my back l

| June 18, 2004 || 9:26 a.m. |

Today�s scope~ Wondering if a certain someone has you on their mind more often than not? Well, a cup of coffee and a few 'casual' questions wouldn't hurt -- just to clarify things! Share a song or a poem with someone you love. They will love it, too.

My neck is all messed up today now. What is it with my body these days? What on earth is it trying to tell me? So far everyone I�ve talked to or commented regarding my back pain is saying the same thing: �herniated disc�. I really hope it is not that, that sounds really painful & not good at all. My back is painful but I don�t want it to be something that serious.
I have to get back in to yoga. I�ve been saying that for a while & now that it�s free at Vally�s total fitness I have no excuses. The only thing that makes it inconvenient is the time. I think it starts at like 6:30 or 6:45 and goes until 7:45pm. I would prefer it be somewhat closer to the time I get off of work or else it is really difficult for me to get there. Like right now w/ the mom visiting he usually calls me to come over for dinner when he gets home � I can�t say no to him inviting me over he sounds just too cute!

On that note I can�t wait until he comes home tonight. I decided to stay close to home by taking the comedian to the tavern for dinner & dancing. That is so much easier to do & is still a lot of fun. I�d feel out of sorts at the porn convention. I�d want to take someone with me even though I�d be meeting up w/ sexyatheist, I wouldn�t want to feel like I am barging in on their plans or whatever. Geez, I just got my paycheck & now I have to do the bill paying stuff� it sucks. Of course the place I went to get my hair done didn�t cash my check until yesterday, two weeks later!! That really fucked things up in my checking account. I started over to keep a clean plate but I hate people that don�t cash things right away. I should just stop paying by check; you can never count on anyone but yourself these days. When someone gives me a check I cash it immediately but then again like I said that is just me.

I want my MINI! Everyday I continue making this crap pay & can barely keep myself afloat in this hell hole of orange county I kick myself in the arse because I can�t afford to trade my echo for my MINI. It�s not fair I deserve my MINI. I�m never going to get anywhere especially out of debt staying here at this job. They don�t pay anyone here anywhere close to what they deserve or are worth. [/end rant]

I can�t wait for the rain. We�ve had crappy cloudy weather for the past three days & yet no rain. They said thunder & lightning yet we have seen nothing. Dammit I love the rain. I love staying in bed w/ S while it pours outside. We used to sneak out on the patio [last year around this time] wearing nothing if only a shirt just to smoke a cigarette. I�d put my feet between his legs to keep my piggies [thanks for that one Jayna] warm. I can�t believe it�s been a year since we quit smoking. Almost a year, I think it was around July. I didn�t quit entirely at that time but I have since then. I�ve surprised even myself by not smoking anymore especially when drinking. I guess when no one else around you smokes it makes it a lot easier. I never noticed how much I missed out on by having to run outside every few minutes to catch a smoke. A lot goes on while the smokers are out, & they miss out on some great conversations. Any hoo, The pres. is on his way down to our office apparently so I should wrap this up for now.

Have a happy Friday everyone!

[edit] I just received a call from S. They might just stay another night in SD & go to the other park tomorrow. He asked if I�d drive down tonight to join them if that is what they decided to do. Of course I would!! That means I wouldn�t be able to go to the Tavern w/ the comedian but then again I wouldn�t want to jump right on the freeway cause traffic is sheer hell driving down to SD on a Friday night directly after work. He said he�ll call me later to let me know the plans. I get to see my baby!! I hope the comedian understands. Maybe we can go Saturday night instead. [/edit]