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| June 07, 2005 || 3:18 p.m. |

Depressing realizations/comparisons of how much my life has changed since moving from the "OC" to the "DFdub".

While living in the "OC":

• Back when I desperately needed a second source of income I never got one because I had too much of a social life


• I struggled to pay rent


• While struggling I had to endure freaky suicidal, klepomanical roommates which lead me to locking myself in my room for solitude


• I spent half the week with my bf yet get to see my family a handful of times throughout the year

While living in the "DFdub":


• I now have 3 jobs and have no social life


• I still struggle to pay all my bills yet my rent is near 65% less then that in the "OC".


• Now I have no psycho roommates but still am pretty much in solitude the only thing that's changed is now my contained area includes a kitchen


• I spend half my week with my family & only a handful of times this year with my bf

That's all I can think of for now but I'm sure there is more than that. Kind of funny to think about really. I'm very assbackwards on a few things such as the job/income thing but what can I do? At least with 2 out of 3 of my jobs I'd be able to transfer to some location in the "OC". That would then give me 2 jobs like I would need in the first place to barely begin to survive.

I'm bored now. Nothing to do all ready and yet I still can't think of more to write.

Hehehe, I did take a lot of naughty pics last night for my Suisse, even experimented with my 'movie feature' on my old dig cam. Well I say old cause technology with those damn things progresses so quickly. We had a fun night & some fun conversation too. Even though I'm locked up I just can't seem to be as graphic as I used to be. Sorry to disappoint but let's just pray that nothing horrible happens with us, I'd hate to have those 20 second clips floating on the net. I know he's not the type to do that though even if heaven forbid... I have nothing to worry about he's mine for the rest of lives. Have I mentioned that I love him more then I've loved anyone ever before? Well if not I did just now.