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| June 08, 2005 || 3:44 p.m. |

I've been a little more pre-occupied with sex lately in case you haven't noticed. I haven't gotten anything 'real' since the last weekend of April and even that weekend I only got 'real' once. I'm in need of reality, in a bad way. So much so I've gone off the deep end at my FT job. I do a lot of stamping, so much so that it sounds like rapid fire when in my groove. I was so into it today that when the stamper jammed and refused to return to its inky home with no thought nor hesitation I did the porn spit.

I'm getting bad, so very bad, can I get a spanking please? One thing I have to face is the fact that Suisse is just not the Dom type. Bless his eager heart, he likes to try to do anything that I want but he just doesn't have what it takes to hurt me [not hurt hurt me but be rough]. He's naturally submissive and for a woman like me who likes to also be submissive at times, it's not the best thing. Sometimes I need my hair pulled, ass-smacked, and be thrown up against the wall or pushed down onto a bed/floor. We've been together for closer to 18 months now yet it seems as if we have so much more fun laying ahead of us in the boudoir department. He wants to learn and try everything. I feel strange being the 'experienced' one being that I am also the one 6 yrs younger.

So I need a distraction. Badly. I didn't do any exercise last night, how horrible I am. Serious spank me. At least I am headed to Mompers tonight for ribs & a recording of the first episode of the last season of 6 feet under. I haven't watched that show in a long time. Perhaps I should do an 'alias' with that show now. I could use a new obsession until the 4th season comes out on DVD. *mental note: add to netflix*

Funny little incident I just have to mention. While getting off the phone last night with Suisse [no I mean while hanging up], I said the L words as he simulaneusly said I miss you, then I said I miss you too while he simulaneously said L words you too. It made us laugh and I have to admit I played dumb just to hear him tell me what happened... heehe I got to hear him say the L words twice in less then one minute! I so sneaky.

Okay I had nothing to do all day and now my work has accumulated so I might not get done in time... nah! I'm too fast for that!