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| Monday, Nov. 11, 2002 || 10:41 a.m. |

Anticiption can drive a woman mad, but patience can be a virtue. So my long awaited meeting tonight is being postponed due to being held up at her lawyers this morning making her miss her flight out tp lala land. But as the tides turn gray tonight, another day seems sweeter than honey. It looks as if things might blossom more brightly than the original intentions. I spoke with my webmaster last night through aim extensively about her new plans, thoughts and concerns regarding moi and her baby.

I ws shocked to hear what she has in mind, it is so much more than I could have even dreamed of! Although I understand where her concerns stem from, I wish that I could let her see me for what I am capable of and what I am completely... I want so badly to make this my own baby, I would treat it as such and delve into this venture with my heart and soul. Ooh so anxious am I!

I do feel sneaky about doing this to my present company. I mean I want so badly to share this excitement with them yet at the same time I can not until I find out where this might be going if anywhere ya know? I do not want to have them worry about losing me if nothing comes to fruitition. I want them to understand that this was not something I sought out, I was not looking for another job but this just happened. A once in a lifetime, i'd-be-crazy-to-turn-away opportunity that kismet brought about. I have a friend, Crazywater, that I want to strongly recommend taking over my position. I can not think of leaving this family stranded, I will do the honourable thing, give them the proper respect they deserve with two weeks notice and a replacement if they choose to accept her. When you put it that way it's a win , win situation. They really love me here and are always expressing how much they need me, how much they depend on me etc... so I have to! I could never live with myself if I just turned my back and walked away. Not too mention how ethnically and morally wrong it is...

Okay! lighter note! positive side to this raincheck is I can now hang out with Dreplica and her friends watching the Raiders game and BBQin'. Here's what my horoscope says about tonight. I thought it is pretty funny given my new plans...

*If you are going out to a party or other gathering, then you may need to find some way to keep your feet very firmly anchored to the ground. There is every likelihood that you may be swept away in a tide of passion that could take you completely by surprise. Don't give in to this romance too quickly; you need more time.*