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| Monday then edited on Tuesday January 14, 2003 || 1:48 p.m. |

I am kinda disappointed today. Not by anyone but just in general. I drove on my lunch break ooh so excitedly to check out the apartment that my mom is helping me get. Well I arrive all ready to see what I know is there and get the ball a~rollin' right? Wrong! the dumb bitch in the rental office apparently thinks that she can just push people away with a 'shoo- come back at three or an hour or tomorrow'. when my mom showed up not so far behind me (Oops my phone was forwarded to the house... she got mad at that one) the same biotch told her same thing... but not the hour part. So my wonderful mother made an appointment for me tomorrow at noon. I was all excited today and now the helium in my tank has depleated... Ooh I just off the phone with the biznitch and she said that they just rented out their last apt available for this month... But I think I found something better from a cute boy with my middle name as his first... lol Headed there in 30 to check it all out!

**OKay now I feel like the fucking arsehole! For some odd reason I decided to keep my appt. with my ideal apts. today. Thank goodness I did! I feel horrible for writing that smack above about 'Barbie'. She is an absolute doll and I should have been more compassionate and understanding! She was all alone for the day and had 5 move-ins. Well in summation I am a biotch yet a lucky one at that... I got the apt and I am moving in on the 26th! This is the only place that doesn't care if I have a dog/cat/aliens in my apt... don't ask; don't tell kinda policy. Nice!**

Well my day just got brighter... it's a boy! Funny how the same day I started pondering my summer pregnancy and how I would be the size of a house with two months left and then I received an email telling me of my brother and his wife next child... He must be jumping for joy at this point. Lucky Bastard has is lil girl, house-wife, house, job, two doggies and now his lil boy... that is just not fair for a guy of 26 yrs. Ooh and did I mention that his wife was his best friend since 6th grade? Yeah it's The Dead Zone only my brother is the more of a cynic then a psychic...

**I did quite a bit of bitching about my brother and his family yesterday but the truth is... I am incredibly jealous of the life that he lives. I know that he deserves everything he has for he has worked so hard to achieve it all. I love my family more than life itself... I just wish we call could be living here in california or anywhere other than Texas.

Enough, I called and left a message for Leo kinda late last night. Well after 10pm but he was either out or asleep. Hmmm we'll see if he returns my call. Did I blow it by blowing him 'n leaving? Hmmm so many thoughts to ponder. My time is almost done with for this month & with the amount of porn I have been watching lately I am gonna be needing someone to have fun with soon... Who will the lucky one be? Hopefully it will be someone that can keep up! I need more than a one time fling thing... Ooh it'd be nice to have a steady sure thing... an everyday thing... ooh the very thought makes me want to go home... For a chic I am really more sexually driven than most men, at least most that I know. Milwaukee was really good at keeping up the pace. I lagged when I became pregnant but other than that set back it was a very consistent 2-3 times a day daily. sometimes more... Alright that is enough... I need to focus on work for once this week now that my apartment troubles have evaporated...**