l Schedules, pancakes, period l

| June 09, 2005 || 12:04 p.m. |

I obviously cannot count worth shit, I might as well have wrote uno, dos, tres, quatorze... Yesterday I said that we were coming up to 18 months together thinking that was 2 and a half years... well minus one year it is! We'll have been together for 27 months on the 12th.

I don't think anyone appreciated the Yello "oh yeah" clip I sampled to accompany that "Office Porn" entry. I looked long & hard for that damn thing!! *sniffsniff* It's okay, really, honest & for true I'm fine. I really do hate being locked up. I hate not having all the readers I had before, it's just too bad there were a few bad apples along with that small bushel. I wonder how long I need to stay locked before they just stop trying to go here. I wish I had some sort of way of seeing their every attempt to log on so I knew when they just gave up. But even with all the miracles of technology that's just not an option.

Both my brother's play in a baseball league and today is their first game [I think it's the first]. I've never watched them play in any sport since they were in Hockey back in Alaska and never before had they even played together on a team. I'm meeting my family there at 7pm, I don't know where it is at other then 5 miles past the Mall where I work. I guess I'll have to wing it. Hopefully X will have next weeks schedule ready after 5. I really need to provide ODS [my new job] with that so they can write me into theirs. That will also help kill some time before I have to be at the game.

My Apartment lease is up at the end of August and I am definitely moving. Where to? I don't know for sure. The only apartments I'd really like I can't afford at this payrate, the ones across from it is affordable providing they are running their specials at that time & have a one bedroom available. Why is it I am always moving? One reason is clear, I don't put too much thought or research into my moves. I am an impulse shopper. That's not a great quality to have, at least not in home or apartment shopping. There is a position within my FT job that I want to move into, it was going to be open last month when we moved from 4 to 5 a day but our CFO told them that they'd stay at their 5 rather then go to 6 [our showroom is always one ahead of the rest of us] until further notice. I hope that further notice is soon. I've talked to the Showroom manager and she knows that I want it, she likes me too so I don't think there will be an issue with me moving over. My managers here also know and really support this move; it is the perfect fit for me within the company.

If this move or change of position occurs I would imagine that it would also include a payraise, not too mention that position also receives bonuses, I think it's a slice of the pie really, not a commission. The position I am talking about is a Selection Coordinator. For anyone who has had a house built they should know what that is: The person who guides the home buyers around our showroom to choose all of the options they want for their home. Now the difference with our company is there is no commission to be made, the amount they have to spend there is all ready predetermined when they choose their model/floorplan etc and get the loan approved. Whatever amount they want to budget for the total home loan is the first thing we determine. Then they get to pick what they prefer, more space [square footage] or lots of options. So I, as a SC, just show the home buyers what their options are.

Now I am hopeful that this position will open before the end of August so I will be able to afford more. I don't know if I will be able to keep my other two jobs though since the hours at the SR are 10 to 7 or something like that, plus it's open on weekends. I'd rather have one good paying job then 3 that pay okay. Let's cross our fingers cause the noise at my current apartment is getting worse. Last night after I got home some 'cholo' decided that he wanted to blast his mariachi music with the bass up extra loud and his trunk wide open. I could only hear the thump, thump, thump vibrating throughout my apartment, I was trying to watch "Be Cool", so I gathered up my courage and walked outside asking the guy to kindly turn at least the bass down. He did, I think being the "cute white girl" I get heard rather then jumped. Later on the upstair neighbors decided the floor was a trampoline & the ones next to them apparently have problems hearing so everyone that knocks has to bang repeatedly for 10 minutes before they open the door.

Can you tell I started today? I'm wearing white pants too, baggy white linen but I'm just so good that it's not even an issue. I haven't started cramping... yet, i'm all broken out, starving but since my dsl has been acting up my lunch break will consist of me letting the sb* peoples into my apt to fix that and to top it all off I've been craving pancakes every since bittergirl's entry. *edit* A great read~ Biphobia as Sexual Essentialism **so good I had to edit to include it!**